Saturday, September 24, 2011

So guess what?

Wow I take back all my frustration from the previous post. Sorry for doubting you guys for even a minute or two. I can't believe I wrote all that. Tells you a lot about my mood swings, doesn't it?

I agree, I've stopped writing. It doesn't make me feel lighter anymore. The feeling that something has just died is just not diminishing and I want it to, but it refuses. My days are drowning in work and Grey's Anatomy running side by side, my nights are me lying awake and staring at my fairy lights. 

It's so much better to feel something through completely right down to your core than to quickly release it. It's easier to cry till a point when you just can't anymore, rather than distract yourself from that urge. That's what I'm going to try. Ride with the sadness till it's had enough of me. What do you do when you wake up one day and realize that the love within you has just vanished? How do you come to terms with the lack of love in your body and mind? 

Riding it out seems like a pretty good idea to me.


  1. Hey, Hi
    riding the sad wave...hmm well, i wud say, jus let it go.....see coz, u are wasting the precious amount of time u can utilize to eat ice creams, or well laze around...or may be, smoke.. ;-)

    n well being sad doesnt really change anything...honestly...
    n that empty feeling on teh inside, yeah tis bad...but then, if u wont open, hows it gonna fill up again?? simple.


    p.s.- i knw its easier said than done..but then, do wats best for u gal..

  2. You can never run out of love Kay, you never will. Turn around, you are looking in the wrong direction. Look forward, not back. You've been awesome, take it back.

    Blasphemous Aesthete

  3. Don't ride with it. Honestly, it's going to piss you off later. There's a reason I'm quoting a cliche, "it ended for a reason". And there's a reason why it's a cliched, too.
    So work. Work your ass off and come in terms with it, I know it's sinking in. And let it. And realize that it doesn't always have to be a happy ending with someone, it can just be one with You.
    Sorry about the long comment bro. It's just I've had a lot to say on what you've been posting lately, for I've been dealing with the ditto since about five months.