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Hello chaos!

So I'm a horrible person because I have 2 blog awards (one from MARCH) and I have only managed to move out of my procrastination drive to accept them today.

*cue awkward cricket sounds*

FINALLY, a giant thank you to Anjali and Diwita who for some reason think my blog is worth their time and award-bestowing. :) Both awards require some question-answering, so here we go.

THANK U DIWITA!

THANK U ANJALI!

Diwita's first, since she's been super nice and not asked me why I've been terrible and not acknowledged this award for months *hides face behind wall of shame*

1. Why did you start blogging?

     I always had a love for writing, and for years I wanted to start a blog but just never got around to it. The idea seemed amazing but I wasn't confident enough. But college helped me feel more sure about myself, and in my second year of college, Sensitive Chaos was born.

2. Who is your favourite superhero?

     Batman. He is just the coolest, no competition.

3. Describe the most embarrassing moment of your life :P

    Really, on the internet? 

    Well, for this one course I had in college we made a flickr account for the entire class to upload photos from a field trip. I was made in charge of the account, and I informed everyone about the upload limit on non-pro accounts, making sure they upload only good photographs. Going through the photostream one day, I saw some random photos of chappals and such, and began yelling at everybody about the shitty photos they were uploading, until my teacher quietly said, "Well I uploaded those, but if they suck so much I'll take them down." How's that for embarrassing.

4. Which sport do you enjoy(if you do at all)?

     Badminton!

5. Do you have a tattoo?

     No! But as soon as I can think of a nice enough design, it shall be inked on my wrist.

6. A word for my blog :)

     Lovely!

And now for Anjali's questions.

1. Is your blog an integral part of your life? 

     It is! Though I feel like I let it down sometimes by not posting enough.

2. Do you regret having posted anything in your blog?

     Not really. It's my blog, and if anyone has a problem with what I've posted they can just not read it.

3. Do you get embarrassed reading your initial posts?

     Not gonna lie, I do, a little bit. But I like seeing the change in my posts over the years.

4. Crayons or paints? (because I felt like .. :P)

     Paints :)

5. Which is your favourite book character?

     Hermione Granger.

6. If you were a musical instrument, which one would you be? And why?

     I'd be a ukelele. Because it lives in the shadow of a guitar, but still holds its own.

7. Your favorite day-dream?

     Walking through a forest in autumn with this British youtube boy I have a crush on.

8. Which is that one song that has been stuck in your head of late?

     Ed Sheeran's 'Kiss Me'

9. A stupid movie you watched recently?

     Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Dog Days

10. Which one of these inspire you to write - beaches or mountains? Why?

      Mountains. For some reason the silence and the tall trees put me into an abyss of inspiration. :)

11. Name a song that would have suited the most poignant moment of your life so far.

      "Tum Se Hi"from Jab We Met. It's cheesy, but there is a person I credit my maturity to, and this song fits that.

YAY ALL DONE.

And now the best part, giving the awards to my favouritest bloggers :)

The Voice In My Head

Muse-Ment

Translucid Graffiti

Yeah Whatever...

Ice Maiden

Here are the questions for you, lovelies!

1. What’s your favourite book?

2. What’s your favourite dessert?

3. If you could visit any place in the world, where would it be?

4. Who’s your celebrity crush?

5. What’s your biggest phobia?

7. If you could have any super power, what would it be?

8. What’s one gadget you wished you owned?

Also, please let me know what you think of the new header! I'm a little too much in love with it.

Love,

Kanika

Beginning / End

Over the past week, I had to pack up my Bangalore life into cartons and suitcases. Somehow shut 4 years of memories & love and happiness and relationships into boxes and send them back home. And then I had to leave too.

Of course it did not hit me till the taxi driver called and asked for directions, & suddenly I was blubbering and tearing up over the phone. I spent 4 years waiting to leave this place and when I was at the end all I wanted was another day in that house, making maggi at 3 am and drinking quietly in the balcony so that our landlord wouldn't get to know and watching Friends with Ze Boyfriend while sitting on the same cartons I had just finished packing, holding his hand really tightly because I knew in a few hours I'd be too far away.

[it's not like I won't see him. I still have my final diploma project left to do, I just chose to do it in Delhi. I'll see him soon. :)]

I hated leaving, and last minute my friends decided to drop me to the airport; one showed up with his car, so the taxi left with other people with flights at the same time. I cried quietly all the way to the airport, I cried when I had to hug everyone, I cried when I got to the check-in counter (thinking about it right now is forming a lump in my throat) and I realised it was harder to leave Bangalore than it was to leave Delhi 4 years ago.

I've been home for a couple of days now. Sorry about the silence. Just lots of things to miss.

The very sweet Anjali has given me a blog award and it requires some do-ing; give me a day or two to adjust to all this upheaval and I'll be back. (:

Lots of love,
Kanika

Enticing Solitude

A blog award slipped right past, but I'm giving it the attention it deserves now. Akanksha, you lovely thing, thank you! :)

So the rules of this 'Creative Blogger' award are:

1. Thank the blogger and link back to their blog.
done and done!

2. a) Tell us three things about yourself.
one, I'm a hothead.
two, I love to sing!
three, I always take hot water baths, no matter the weather.

2. b)Tell us two things people don't know about you.
one, I hate cake. (sorry, I really am)
two, I use hair serum (really ran out of things to say)

2. c)Tell us one thing you want to change about yourself.
my temper, most definitely. I wish I was inherently calmer.

3. Answer the questions asked by the blogger.

a. What if pigs actually have money inside them? Would you slice 'em up to check?

HAHAHAHAHA OMG WHAT?!

Well now that you mention it, it might just be a possibility, but the only reason I'd slice a pig is for pork.

b. What is the worst pick-up line you've been hit upon by?

Not the worst but most recent.

sigh.

c. Which God do you presume is a fashionista?

Aphrodite, obviously! Also maybe Artemis. (sorry Greek mythology is too interesting!)

d. Do you believe in hate at first sight?

Hell yeah.

e. Is Polo an illegitimate kid to doughnuts?

No, just trying too hard.

f. What made Passion Fruit have the name it does?

It's loud and complex and interesting, just like its namesake.

4. Nominate other bloggers.

Isha, at Chaai, Paani, Etc. 

I love her & miss her blogging!

Nilanjana, at ~Nil.

because she's lovely and happy and beautiful. :)

Kshipra, at Muse-Ment

for being delightful and profound. <3 p="">

And Maryam, at Overwhelming Confessions

one of the most beautiful bloggers I know :)

5. Ask questions to the bloggers you nominated.

Choose between (and tell us why)

a) the beach and the mountains

b) chocolate and vanilla

c) heels and flipflops

d) holi and diwali

e) glasses and contact lenses

6. Inform the bloggers you nominated.

On my way!

Love love,

Kanika

We Will Be Changed

Hello!

Let me share my state of mind and its uncertain nature in these photos. Literally, ten minutes apart.

I have long since given up trying to understand my brain.

One thing though. Few days ago, I was rightly slapped back into reality from the soulless abyss I was falling into. Ze boyfriend pulled me up, dusted me down, and gave me a talking to I most rightly deserved. No more cribbing and whining, I'm telling myself, I'm going to start spreading only sweetness and light.

It's very easy to make these pronouncements at 12.24 am when you know you can't sleep till at least 3. I'm not fretting at the thought though. I'm looking forward to it. There's something about the feeling...8tracks playlists in my ears, my fairy lights keeping me company at unearthly hours, and just me and Adobe Illustrator. It's therapeutic. And for a while it hadn't been. I'm happy it's here again. :)

Anywho, the good(er) news is, Akanksha (click here for her lovely blog) has bestowed me with this, and I need to do some things in order to receive it completely.

1. Thank the person who nominated you and link back.

2. State 7 random facts about yourself.

3. Answer the questions the tagger asked you.

4. Generate questions for people you want to award.

5. Inform them.

Okay, then.

1. Thank you Akanksha! You are very lovely and I hope you continue finding my blog worth your reading time :) linked back already! <3 p="p">

2. Seven Random Facts About Me

• I've cut my own hair once out of frustration.
• Most mornings I wake up with chai withdrawal; expecting me to be polite before my morning cuppa is widely considered futile.
• I'm curently in the middle of reading 5 books. (Catcher in the Rye, To Kill a Mockingbird, The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, The Fountainhead, some random chick novel) Time isn't on my side. Come my two week Delhi vacation, and they'll all be crossed off my list.
• I don't lend my earphones.
• I've stopped lending books once they started coming back in terrible shape.
• I follow too many TV shows at a time.
• I procrastinate a LOT.

3. Akanksha's questions:

If you had a pig, what would you name it?-

I would name it Chamkili. (sparkly in Hindi)

How do you exert most energy? =P 

Sitting on my ass, watching Grey's Anatomy, eating Cheetos (I wish I could lose calories doing that, I would be invisible by now)

What do you think would happen if your dog ate your sunscreen?

Nothing really. I don't have a dog, I can try it out on my little sister and tell you :P

Why doesn't McDonald's sell hotdogs?

I HAVE BEEN ASKING THE SAME THING. IT'S CRIMINAL. I WANT MCDOGS.

Do prison buses have emergency exits?

Ooh I love witty questions, sadly my answers never match up. But no, I guess not.

Why can't doughnuts be square?

There has to be some physics thing to this...

I googled it.

"It's to allow maximum capacity and less breakage when being filled by machine with a filling such as custard or jelly. A square doughnut would break at the corners and so would a triangular doughnut.And having a hole in the middle of the dough would increase the surface area of the dough to improve the texture when fried. Also, a round doughnut is the easiest to create when cooking because most types of dough round out when baked unless put into a special tray. The round doughnut is also much more appealing to the eye than a square or triangular doughnut...no matter how cool those would be :D
Also its easier to make...you just roll the dough out...cut it and connect the two sides to make a circle.

And having a hole in the middle of the dough would
increase the surface area of the dough to improve the texture when fried."

:D

Are children who acted in rated R movies allowed to see them?

Haha NO WAY. Rather, I hope not. But I'm sure during shooting they see way more than they bargained for anyway.

Does a postman deliver his own mail?

It's possible! Heck, that's awesome, his mail's never gonna get lost.

Why are the shoe sizes different for a man and a woman of the same height?

Biologically, women are smaller. It's an evolutionary thing.

Okay, can't get anymore crazier. Review my blog. =P

Akanksha! You are such a cute little person. Your posts are so much fun to read and I laugh out loud sometimes :) Just one tiny suggestion: the font size could be a tad smaller and have a subtler colour. Sorry! Graphic design student up in da hood :P

4. Oh no! My questions to you guys:

- Do you believe in miracles?

- What is the most beautiful place you've ever been in?

- Who is your favorite band/artist and why?

- Is 2012 really the end of the world?

- If you had to choose between travelling the entire world and going to the moon (money no bar) which     would you choose?

- What's the most delicious thing you've ever eaten?

- Review my blog :P (I LOVE THIS QUESTION)

- Lastly, in the words of Arthur Weasley, what exactly is the function of a rubber duck?

5. Award people.

This is me being my uncharacteristically sweetness-and-light self.
Whoever is reading this post, you're awarded. Anyone who's feeling good about themselves today can choose to reward themselves for feeling good. And those who are on the dark side of things today, well, here's a pick-me-up, this award's yours :)

Going to post more soon!
Love,

Kanika

Acknowledgements and Happy Days

Something crazy has happened. For the first time, three people have passed the same award to me, and it's so wonderful because it's literally the 'Favourite Blog' award. Ruhani, Priyanka and Akanksha, thank you so much for thinking I deserve this :) 


German for 'favourite' - Liebster!

The downside is, though, there is now so much I have to do for this, and all that into 3. I have to write 11 facts about myself (so Imma now have to think of THIRTY THREE), I have to answer 11 questions (oh no, thirty three) and I'll have to frame 11 more questions for the people I pass this award onto. I have no qualms in all this, I just hope you guys don't get bored reading so much gibberish :3 (no one told me to write 3 times the amount I need to, I'm just in a really talkative mood right now)


OKAY, THIRTY THREE FACTS ABOUT ME.


1. I was born prematurely, and because I was so small my parents named me Kanika which means as small as an atom. Actually my mom named me that, my dad was vehement on calling me 'Amrusha'. No offence to anyone called that, but I'm glad my mother won that argument.


2. I actually prayed every night from the day my mom told me she was pregnant right up till she gave birth. I prayed for a sister, because I was 8 years old which is bang smack in the middle of my boys-are-so-stupid phase. I figured God existed, because I got what I asked for. And I got to name her :)


3. I've never got stitches, and I've never broken any part of my body. The most massive medical distress I was in was when I got jaundice as a seven year old, and then mild chickenpox in 12th standard.


4. I'm very good at remembering phone numbers, dates and random facts which makes me come off as really creepy on some occasions. :P


5. Every month for about 5 days, I VICIOUSLY wish I was a boy (certain days these are...when my womanhood is showing off in full bloody glory).


6. I'm terrible when it comes to keeping grudges. By that I mean it takes a lot for me to let it go, and if I do so without much persuasion then I probably really care about you.


7. The first time I ever stuck to a new year resolution was when I got my nose pierced. I know it's not a big thing, but man, it felt amazing the moment after it happened. (obviously I'm forgetting the stinging crazy pain from my nostril)


8. I truly love Coldplay's music. I'm not calling myself their biggest fan or anything (I probably don't even know as much about Chris Martin as some people around me do) but wow, their music is just so soothing and calming. Fuck the haters!


9. Ditto^ for John Mayer.


10. I really want to color my hair but I'm constantly worried I'll look like a fool. (Nilanjana, if you're reading this, you're amazingly awesome for getting it done, and woo, it looks great, we all know it <3 p="p">
11. My current courses all deal with content writing and editing - I've basically died and gone to writer heaven. I would love to be an editor, I think that job is made for me.

12. I do this extremely frustrating thing where I start a conversation on fb chat and lose the will to talk halfway into my second sentence. If I've done this to you, forgive me. I swing from friendly to aloof within seconds.

13. Not very random and pretty obvious really, but I love blogging :)

14. I've always wondered what having long hair would entail. The longest my hair has ever been is three inches down my shoulder. (I shouldn't really talk about my hair, it's a really heart wrenching topic)

15. I love hot baths. (I have a feeling I've mentioned this 23456785432 times before)

16. I LOVE MY MACBOOK IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

17. I'm a fourth year, the senior most batch in my college. I don't feel it at all. This happened to me during school too - when I was in sixth standard the seniors were these mature, smart people, ready to go out into the big bad world. I reached there myself and realised I was as immature and silly as I had always been. Being in my last year of college hasn't changed that.

18. My favourite book, song and color changes every goddamn day. (little hard to answer when someone asks, but today it's The Perks of Being A Wallflower/Into the Wild - LP/ turquoise)

19. I'm currently wearing my boyfriend's shirt to college. It looks really good on me. :D

20. I'm working on a new blog look right now. (by that I mean header). Suggestions are welcome. :)

21. I try very hard to keep everyone around me happy. In trying to do that I piss a lot of people off because it essentially means I can never decide on something. I'll be stressed whether I made the right choice for everyone.

22. ^As you can tell, I mostly never give a shit about myself. It works on some occasions and backfires on others.

23. I'm a notebook junkie. I collect notebooks but mostly leave them empty out of fear of ruining their pages.

24. I sniff books. Specially old ones my mother digs out from the recesses of her bookshelf with yellow dog-eared pages and tiny serif fonts. She recently lent me her copy of some John Grisham novel and I immediately dug my nose into it. (you'd think she'd be surprised but after 20 years of raising the idiot that I am, she was expressionless)

25. I want to lose weight. Anybody with tips, email me. Haha

26. I have forced my boyfriend to dance with me one really drunk night with friends. We played 'Glad You Came' and just jumped for the entire duration of the song. It was a crazy experience :D

27. I would like to achieve a perfect British accent.

28. I'm an amazing bathroom singer. Like, I have serious talent.

29. I'm an over-planner. I do not like to 'wing it' and if I am not completely sure about what the schedule is I will refuse to be a part of whatever it is, no matter how much I love it.

30. I remember song lyrics really easily, which leads people to think that I'm jobless.

31. I love triangles and geometric shapes, specially in illustrations and graphic design.

32. JUNK FOOD FTW

33. I had way more fun writing these than I expected :D

NOW! THIRTY THREE QUESTIONS I MUST ANSWER!
Akanksha's questions for me:

(1) If you were given one wish, what would that be? 

I would love to be stuck in my last year of school.

     

(2) Which place do you wish to visit the most?

Greece.

(3) If you somehow become the President, what would be the first thing that you'd do?

Take a nap on the giant insane bed I know I'll have/enable wi-fi at the Rashtrapati Bhavan.

(4) Your favourite author?

Oh no...there are too many. JK Rowling, Eoin Colfer are my all-time favourite authors.

(5) How much does blogging mean to you?

I love blogging. I love the joy of putting my thoughts out somewhere in the virtual cosmos.

(6) Would you give away everything for something that you love doing? 

Depends on how much I love it. Probs yes.

(7) What's the one thing that you would like to get from life?

Contentment.

(8) What would you do if you won a million dollars?

Spend some on nice clothes and food, give the rest to my parents.

(9) What's your life motto?

"When in doubt, eat a burger. When in greater doubt, take a nap." - Me

(10) How stupid and lame are the questions?  

Haha they really aren't.

Ruhani's questions follow:

1. The CRAZIEST thing that you've ever done? 

Sneaked a cigarette at home. So boring :|

2. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Eating.

3. If the average human lifespan was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

Travel like a motherfucker.

4. If you could break one law, which one would that be?

Pretty sure I've broken some, I'm good. Thanks :P

5. What do you do, that you think, makes you different from everyone else?

Decide what I should do on the basis of others' opinions, so much that I forget it's about me.

6. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really think it makes the elevator move faster? :P

I'm the most impatient person I know. (that's a 'hell yes')

7. If you were standing on stage, unaware that hundreds of people were watching you, what would you have done?

Sing a duet from High School Musical (of course I would sing both parts)

8. Who do you think is the sexiest person alive? [Please avoid mentioning me. Obvious facts don't need to be reiterated. :P ]

Haha. George Clooney.

9. Who would you rather date. A worried genius or a joyous simpleton?

Worried genius, any day.

10. If you were stranded on an island, which three things would you like to have in your bag?

a book, a notebook, a pen.

11. What is your first impression of me/this blog? [Muhahahaha. oh how I love being the evil bitch, the mother of all conspiracies and controversies! :D ]

Ruhani you're wonderful :) all your posts are insightful and a delight to read.

Priyanka's questions! :)

1. If you won a billion dollars what are the first 3 things you'd do with it?

Already answered this. Buy some food, some clothes, rest is with the parents.

2. What do you think are your chances of being born as a milkman in your next life?

I was thinking more along the lines of insect, so I really hope my chances of being a milkman are higher!

3. One celebrity you'd love to date.

TOM FELTON, NO DISCUSSION

4. Which bands'/artists' concerts do you really want to attend? Name any 5.

Coldplay, Jason Mraz, Gold Panda, John Mayer, Justin Timberlake.

5. Flip flops or heels?

Flip flops all the time, heels when I decide to look decent.

6. A movie you could watch any number of times?

Mona Lisa Smile and Shawshank Redemption.

7. Who was your first follower?

My roommate :3

8. Describe a moment when you were really proud of yourself.

Prefect in school.

9. What is the one thing you'd do, if you knew you'd be successful at it?

Cook for a living.

10. The best compliment you've ever received?
"The guy who gets to be with you will be the luckiest guy in the world." - breakup conversation

11. By which year do you think we'll finally establish contact with aliens?
Never really. If they haven't contacted us yet they're probably really smart because they're staying away from us.

You know, this was exhausting. Fellow bloggers I award now, just pick and choose your favourite 11 questions from the plethora above and answer them any way you like :)

Now when it comes to awarding people, I want to award all three ladies who awarded me because I love their blogs.

Ruhani

Priyanka 

Akanksha

you guys are so amazing :) you don't need to go through this whole process again but. :P BE HAPPY WITH THE AWARDZ YOU ALL ARE GETTING LIKE MONAY.

Other people I want to award are -

Vidhi

*Dark Angel*

Soumi

Shiromi

I do, I do

I'm going to go and pass this on, now :)

If you read all the way down here, thank you for sticking with the bullshit. I love you.

Yay,
Kanika

Break-fasting

(Any health conscious people or vegetarians reading this, I suggest you stop right here.)

Since 6 years, breakfast has been a meal I love to skip. When I was in school, 7 am meant only a glass of hot milk and then running out the door in fear of missing the bus. In college, breakfast is a leisurely activity I carry out only on holidays, when I'm not running out the door in fear of missing attendance (I think you're seeing a pattern.) I do not enjoy breakfast as much as lunch, dinner or the million snack breaks in between. Maybe it's because lunch and dinner have such a big number of possible things to eat. That includes CHICKEN, something I have resigned myself to knowing I can't live without. But in my mind, since childhood, breakfast has meant toast, multiple kinds of egg, and maybe a stray parantha with leftovers from the night before. Sunday breakfasts are glorious though, and puri-aloo is up there on my list of only thing I will ever willingly eat in the morning.

My internship has provided me with a schedule for the day that I am not used to anymore. It's vaguely familiar to what I had in school, a little more challenging. I wake up at 8.30 a.m., standing ready by 8.45 (surprised?) and till 9 o'clock my mother watches me with hawkeyes as I quietly eat the fried egg and single toast she's placed on the table. If I say no, she will stuff fruits into my bag, and as much as I love apples I'd rather not carry more food to work than the necessary lunch (I'm a bit of a hog like that, if I had more food with me I would never stop eating in office hours).

And I love a good sunny-side-up, do NOT get me wrong, but for every day breakfast, it's a wonder I'm not throwing up every mornings. Eggs are more icky than people think. Yeesh.

Okay putting my strange eating habits aside, Mehak from little trinkets i drop :) has graced me with an award! *joy dance*

And for once, all I have to do once I receive it is simply bask in its glory!

Thanks Mehak :)

Love in breakfastry,
Kanika

Unleash the Motherf*cking Fury

I've been feeling lost.

Been worried about internships, my grades (they're good, they've always been, yet I'm tense), and mostly about how a lot doesn't seem to matter to me at all, suddenly.

How I wish I could paint. There is so much happening inside my head I want to put down onto paper, but I always forget how to do justice to my thoughts. I want to write a long passage describing my dilemma, but I find I get distracted, mostly by shiny things with no body.

But all that for another insomiac night.

Diwita gave me an award :) and it requires some do-ing.

What a byootee.

a) thank and link back to the person who awarded you

Diwita, you are a gracious and kind human being. Thank you :) http://diwita.blogspot.in/

b) share seven things about yourself.

1. There is more truth on my blog than I share with most people.
2. I'm going to go on a diet. tomorrow. no, day after. soon...
3. I am a vicious grammar nazi.
4. Pottermore excited me only for the first five minutes.
5. I need a blanket/sheet when I sleep, even in summer.
6. I am very unsure about my work and applying for internships.
7. It is very difficult to conjure 7 things about yourself on demand, so I am slyly skipping the last.

c) award bloggers.

Okay then, let's see:

- Diwita at In My Words...
Checked out her blog just after she awarded me, she's a sweetheart and a great photographer in the making :) http://diwita.blogspot.in/

- Soumi at Sold-for-shoes-overweight-intellectual-dancer
She could be my best friend if she tried :P http://sold-for-shoes-overweight-intellectua.blogspot.in

- Vidhi at Fat Gulf Kid
My bro in late hours of the night :) http://chroniclesofchaddimanz.blogspot.in/

- I do, I do and ...Capturin' Life..
She's adorable, what else can I say! http://inthepourinrain.blogspot.in/

- Ruhani aat Hello There Machas,And Other Fisherwomen!=)
She's too bubbly for her own good :P http://ilikebigbuttsandicannotlie.blogspot.in/

d) tell them.

Doing that right now :)


Love,
Kanika

Things the past week has taught me.

1. However inviting that plate of gobi manchurian that the guy with the cart next to college created looks, chances are your stomach cannot handle the multitudes of masala and super fast hand motions of the chef. Eat a couple of pieces. And then control yourself.

2. Not having coca cola one day does not mean you are losing interest in that one thing that makes your life beautiful. Don't tell your friends you're getting deaddicted. They'll laugh. [:( ]

3. Never EVER underestimate the soothing powers of long hot water baths.

4. Throwing your head back to laugh while eating Wonka Gobstoppers will make you choke and nearly die.

5. Working with friends seems perfect until it comes to actually WORKing. Youtube will not do your assignments for you. Your GPA will not be calculated on the basis of how well your friends and you can shuffle.

6. Once you find two bloody brilliant songs that have even better videos, you basically listen to them on repeat and piss off your roommate.

play count - 72

 play count - 53

7. I need to write more. I keep thinking of beautiful sentences but before I can jot them down they've vanished.

8. ONE BED CANNOT HOLD TWO PEOPLE.

9. I know nothing about technology. My course makes me feel like that. Yeesh.

10. Big thanks to Priyanka over here at Because I believe in 'The Happily Ever Afters...!' for an award :) ARE MY EYES REALLY SO PRETTY? AW :)

11. Most often, love songs are not about your love story unless the writer knows you. Stop thinking all those beautiful words were written exactly for your life. Other people love and lose too. Specially that Lady Gaga song up there. It is not about you. NOT.

12. Thinking that if you sit in college on a Saturday and work when no one else is around other than your two distracted team mates is an idea that is destined to fail. Hence. Resort to telling yourself not to fuck around and actually do some research.

I took notes. Yeh.

And I took those notes with Sharpies. Are you jealous yet? -_-

13. Forget that thirteenth was your anniversary date.

Bohot pyaar.

Kay

Look what I did

I made a new blog, fellows, for my writing. It's called 'The Dis-Stimulation Of Ardour' (shmancy, yeah?) and I would love for you to follow.

Also. In another brilliant news. Isha from Chaai, Paani, Etc bestowed upon me the prestigious 'Chaai-Paani Award' for, as she described, I have 'pretty eyes and an even prettier blog.' I love you! :)

The Award. Yay.

Pyaar,

Kay

A Lack Of Color

"Sometimes you have to test someone not because you don’t trust them, but to see how much they'll sacrifice for you and sometimes you have to let them go not because you suddenly stopped caring for them but to see if they care enough to come back. You can never find the right person if you don't let go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want & remember what you really deserve. Life doesn't give you the people you want, it gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to love you, to leave you & to make you into the person you were meant to be. I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."


It's been a tough three days.


Of course to him I'm okay, I'm trying really hard to be, but the nights are hardest and in the tiny moments of solitude that I steal away from my friends it hits me: I'm alone as alone can be.


It's still not completely hit, I realize, until I pick up my phone to call him and then remember the last conversation we had and slowly drop my phone back onto the pillow. What to do, he's the only one who can understand the feeling as well as me and he's the only one I have been strictly told by loving friends to not to talk to.


I don't know how to be alone, I haven't done it for four years. Suddenly I have no one to say goodnight to. 


Trying. Getting by. Somehow.


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p.s. a big thank you to whoever commented on the previous post. bohot pyaar.


A bigger thank you to Soumya who has decided to cheer me up with an award :)

Things I must do in order to deserve this:

1. Link back...Done.

2. Seven Random Things

- My name means atom, in hindi. Small, just like me. :)

- I drink more Coke than water in a day.

- I collect notebooks.

- Hot baths help me destress. As does cleaning. I clean when I'm pissed. Lucky for my roommate.

- I prefer to write in a notebook rather than type on a laptop.

- My favourite color changes every day.

- Cannot think of any, hence: I am currently reading Shantaram.

3. Answer these:

Favourite song - Your Love Means Everything by Coldplay and Sister Rosetta Goes Before Us by Robert Plant & Allison Krauss

Favourite dessert - Chocolate, no doubt.

What pisses me off - Rude people. And stupidity.

Biggest fear - being alone. HA.

Best feature - eyelashes. So weirdly specific.

Everyday attitude - Live and let live

What is perfection - What I had three days ago...

Guilty pleasure - Good books and chai

4. Pass it on...

Okay. Do not kill me. I have not been reading blogposts for three days. I know, I suck.

But soon, when I'm feeling less suicidal, I will pass this award on to all my favourite and happy blogs. I promise.

Lots of love, guys.

Be happy. I'm trying.

<3

Kay

Finally, finally, finally :)

First of all, super thanks to Viya over here at A Peek Into My Life for the multiple awards she just bestowed on me :)

The rules are:

1. Link back and thank the person who tagged you. 

Thank you Viya :)  http://aquastudio.blogspot.com/

2. Post seven things about yourself and answer the list of favorite questions.

    

Seven random things:

1. I can never sleep with my hair open. It freaks me out.

2. The only kind of Bollywood music I adore is the 90s Bollywood.

3. I hate cake. Yes, sue me.

4. I was am a premature baby. Very small and with phenomenal eyelashes, I'm told :)

5. In Bangalore I live opposite a Frito Lays warehouse  (!!!!!!!)

6. I'm finicky about spellings. And grammar.

7. My roommate just dedicated a Kannada song to me. She's now playing it at full volume and laughing like a maniac.

Favourites:

Name your favorite colors: Turquoise and pink!
Name your favorite song:  ANYTHING BY COLDPLAY
Name your favorite dessert: Ice cream.
What pisses you off: Bad grammar.
When your upset you: People being rude.
Your favorite pet: Dogs.
Black or white: White
Your biggest fear: Not being able to write or take photos.
Best feature: My nose (others say), my eyes (I think).
Everyday Attitude: Chalo aaj kuch awesome karein!
What is perfection: A trip to the hills.
Guilty pleasure: A good book :)

3. Pass these awards to 15 bloggers.

I'm going to skip this, I did it 3-4 posts ago :|


In other awesome news. I got my nose pierced
:)

AND NO ONE NOTICED IT WHICH MEANS IT SUITS ME :D

Here you go, because I think you deserve it :)

Fuck this. I'm putting out positivity and good vibes.


I felt like awarding the blogs that always interest me and make me smile, laugh, cry and feel a bevy of other emotions.


So here. For no reason except that you guys are awesome :

1. Baawra Mann
She might be off blogging for a bit but Shreya's posts are always really captivating and I like reading them. I sometimes feel that I'm writing her posts, that's how similar our feelings are :)


2. A World Of Illusion
Ananya's craft skills always have me cursing my capable-only-of-untidyness fingers! :D I love your bloggg!


3. The Silhouette
Beautiful words, beautiful person. Eon, you're just brilliant :)


4. Yeah Whatever...
Her DIYs are CRAZY awesome! And her baking skills make me jealous all the time :P Espèra is amazing! Check out her blog and you'll see :)


5. Point Blank
I already realised that she is pretty awesome but *orange plum* takes it to a different level with all her posts :) Let awesomeness prevail, I say!


6. Rants and Rambles!
She recently hit 100 followers but I think Maryam deserves way more! Lovely blog and very very very nice posts  :)


Now a couple of things I want to ask you guys to do, one being PLEASE THANK ME that is all the credit I want, and two, if you're in as good a mood as I am in, you're most welcome to award blogs that YOU love, for whatever reason :)


I shall now go and spread some more sweetness and light.
Toodles :)
Pyaar,
K

Happy 100!

This is my 100th post on this blog! 

My blog's existence always seemed like a certainty but I kept pushing it away right through school and now, 87 followers and 100 posts later, I can't imagine why it took me so long to figure it out :)

I don't know how these things work so I just felt, in the light of this momentous occasion (hahahahaah :P ) I want to hand out this:

to five lovely bloggers:

1. Splatters Of Ink

2. Ananya at A World Of Illusion

3. Niyati at New Lamps For Old

4. ~Nil

5. Samhidha at Street Style

No rules, no necessary need to hand it out to anyone else (unless you really want to) and please thank me, that's all I ask! :)

Lots of love to everyone! I'm in a damn happy mood =)

Pyaar!

K