Thursday, May 24, 2012

Tiresome

I'm getting tired of people. Of having to talk, meet, laugh. The meetings feel pointless. Coming home is a relief.

Had a different sort of talk with granddad today. He talked to me about maturity. He sees sincerity and diligence in me. I don't understand why.

I'm losing faith in people. Everyone is just a terrible version of themselves. I'm tired of being told to not be hurt because the 'real world is a cruel place'. If that's reality I want to go away somewhere far away from it. I want to meet nice people and listen to nice thoughts. I want feeling hurt to be allowed. I want nice people. I want to hear good things.



I feel hurt today. I want to let this feeling get through completely so it doesn't come back to haunt me. This is taking a toll on me already. I abhor myself.

Love in despair,
Kanika

15 comments:

  1. Oh sweetheart, cheer up! Never lose faith in people, always believe that somewhere deep within, there is still goodness in everybody.

    I agree with you, the world may be harsh sometimes, but you can't let it take the best of you. It's okay to feel depressed and lost, like you're sinking, but darling please don't let yourself drown, okay? Go out, get some fresh air, eat some ice cream. Do things that makes you happy and alive. Oh, I wish you feel better.♥

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    1. I'm getting tired of believing there's goodness in everyone...especially since they don't show it :|

      But thank you so much for being such a nice person, you're proving every jerk out there that people can be beautiful :)

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  2. Exactly how I've been feeling the past few weeks :(

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  3. I've been feeling exactly the same here. Coming home is a relief..really. I don't have to talk if I'm not in a situation to. I don't have to fake smiles. I can stay as low as I really feel and I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not.

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    1. And best thing...I can wear pyjamas the whole day and no one will stop me. :)

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  4. This reminds me of one of the posts I did, on exactly the same thing. Everybody's grabbing on to me, and I feel like shrugging all the hands tugging my sleeves.

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    1. You put that so well :O

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  5. I feel the same too, a nice place with nice people everywhere exists only in fairy tale's where everything is bound to have happy endings!

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    1. Why not in real life :|

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  6. Home. Solitude. The words itself sound so comforting.

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  7. A damsel in distress, I wonder where are all the princes stuck. Perhaps it's the traffic jam :)

    Cheer Up!


    Blasphemous Aesthete

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    1. Hahaha i want to save this comment forever! :)

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