Somedays I'm so insightful that I surprise myself, and somedays it's the wine talking.
Either way, I have things to tell you, whoever you are.
It struck me in a moment of disappointment that it's stupid to trust anyone to not break your heart. Even someone who loves you (intensely) is capable of throwing you into the deep end without so much as a log to hold on to, and the water in your lungs makes it hard to ask for help. Of course after all the apologies are exchanged everything is magically alright again, but I wondered last night...are the scars really gone? Didn't the words that were flung at you cut you up so much that you promised yourself you would never face them again? How does a hug and a sorry bandage that?
I always believed if you love someone, all your interactions with them are influenced by your feelings. I love you so much that even when you piss me off I stay calm (a courtesy I offer to no one but you), lest I say something absolutely atrocious that hurts you. But maybe I'm in the minority, the small group of people who care too much, cry too easily, and let go too fast.
I miss your comments, you guys.
Love,
Kanika
(hugs) well here's one.
ReplyDeletePinot Gris sucks. My guardian angel only drinks chardonnay.
sadly, being a constantly broke college student, I will never reach chardonnay.
Deletegoing through the same.. but emotional fools like us cannot avoid this. stay strong :)
ReplyDeletehaha. you too :)
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ReplyDeletethank you so so so much! :D
Deleteu r here too... :)
ReplyDeletehttp://anaugustborn.blogspot.in/2012/08/the-b-team.html
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DeleteTrust me,you are a minority. But it's good to be on the less crowded side every once in a while. Keeps things balanced.
ReplyDeleteI realised that :)
Deletethank you :*
Well, it is hard to be forgiving and loving and being numb to pain at the same time.
ReplyDeleteBe hurt, and live loved. Or be numb, and live.
Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete
I might just choose the latter.
DeleteAnshul :) you make me happy.
sometimes u smile n sometimes it pours :)
ReplyDeletebut love definitely hurts..
it's all part of life n d growing process..
we all go thru it.. n what B.A. said's just so true ..
hope u feel better soon..
I'm feeling way better already! thanks to all of you :)
DeleteWhen you love someone you are willing to forgive everything,that's how crazy the heart gets ;)
ReplyDeletei'm way way way crazier than i thought, in that case :P
DeleteShit happens in life, take it easy
ReplyDelete"Didn't the words that were flung at you cut you up so much that you promised yourself you would never face them again? How does a hug and a sorry bandage that?"
ReplyDeleteLovely post Kanika :-)
Thank you :)
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