Sunday, October 07, 2012

We're Wrong

"We accept the love we think we deserve." - The Perks of Being A Wallflower

Being self-aware is a prized and difficult quality, and the moments of my own where I think I have begun to understand why I am the way that I am make me intensely proud. Right now, for example, I know I don't deserve this, and after days of dealing I'm finally acting on that realisation. Cutting out the hard, terrible and rusty part of the love and trying to keep only the parts that still work. It's not supposed to feel like this, like a punishment, like there is nothing better out there so you stick with the hurtful. Know what you deserve - something that makes you happy. Every person, bad or good, deserves that. I am not a bad person, as much as I'm being convinced. 

Whatever happened to being scarred and broken but proud of it? Being complex and strange and weird but never berating yourself for being unsure?

I'm unsure. Complex. Moody. Sad, mostly. Difficult. But I love you. Let me love you anyway.


Love, 
Kanika

8 comments:

  1. Why does that sound familiar?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Deja vu is taking over me.

      Delete
  2. The photo text is so true. Something I've never said or even thought out loud but now that I read it, I realize I've definitely felt that way before.

    Unsure. It's really rare to be "sure", no?

    ReplyDelete
  3. "Let me love you anyway".
    It's a beautiful line. :')

    ReplyDelete
  4. All relationships go through this phase, after all men and women are different

    ReplyDelete