Hello Again

I don't know if anyone realised I was quiet but I know you did.

I feel like I'm writing too many "I love you & I'm sorry for being MIA" letters to my blog in the recent past. But I'm entitled to it - hey, it's my last week in college. You will not believe the crazy things I need to do so that my college will let me graduate. Let's not get into it.

Anywho, it's been an all-nighter with nice music and Snickers-breaks, and I can finally sense how close going home is, but it's still just a teeny bit out of reach.

Bangalore day-break is crazy beautiful.

How've you been? :)

Love,
Kanika

Unbearable

Somedays it's an explicable spring in my step, some nights an imponderable gloom, and an almost constant will to express but no strength to articulate my brain.

It's been a struggle to not care about the shitty things that happen in a day (because everyone tells you not to care) but I care anyway. It's easier than trying not to. And I feel better about not denying anything that goes on in my head.

I am slowly beginning to realise the things that make me happy. A clean table, a plant on my desk, a good cup of tea, laughing with friends, a cozy nap in the afternoon, people who lend books, a lovable bulldog puppy who plonks his butt into your lap and demands attention, my new-and-improved fairy lights (photos soon!), sharing a cigarette in the dark in the balcony, logo design books, and I could go on and list things that seem so tiny but add up to really really fulfilling days.

All of this, and Fantabulous February is up soon! I almost cannot contain the joy right now :D

So for people who don't know what FF is (where have you been?!) let me take you through.

Fantabulous February is an exercise I cooked up to keep myself engaged in writing, because I began to feel at this time last year that I was losing my love for the written word. It goes like this: every day for the month of February, I'll be posting an image or quote or basically anything which is even half-inspiring, and by the end of the day, I'd have used that inspiration to write a post of my own. It's like forcing yourself into creativity. And the best part, anyone who wants to take part can do so, all you need to do is write a post on your blog, post the image/quote/etc. there too, and once you're done send me a link to that post, because I like including them here :)

This is the FF label, so you can see the crazy prose we came up with last time :) HERE.

YAY FOR BLOGGING AND BLOGGERS AND FEBRUARY AND LOVE AND EVERYTHING.

Love in ecstatic restlessness,
Kanika

All of My Days

"Lay with me, I'll lay with you,

we'll do the things that lovers do,

put the stars in our eyes,

and with heart shaped bruises,

and late night kisses,

divine."

I love you so goddamn much, you beautiful fool. :)

The Perils of Cold Water Bathing

Since I am an internet-less wench no longer, it is now time to rejoice, sit at home in my blanket and still able to stalk people on Facebook. All is well.

Now I can tell you what I've been thinking and feeling for so many days in the past.

First things first, cold water baths suck. As much courage as it takes to pour that first mug on your head,  remember that even if you assume you'll be proud of this later, your shivering hands (even once you're out of the bathroom and fully clothed) will fuck up your kajal-applying abilities. Don't do it.

Second, I am having a torrid love affair with paanipuri (or golguppa, if you're from that part of the country, or puchka if you're a purist). I've exclaimed in the midst of absolute food heaven that there is no wound that paanipuri cannot heal for me. Current (and future, if any) boyfriend(s), be happy that it takes just a ten rupee plate of these delicious little flavor bombs to make me smile.

Thirdly, I am learning to be a person who does not overthink, overcare, overeat, overcry, overfeel. It's working wonders, my days are turning out beautifully.

The only dark shroud in this world of good things is a tiny problem with my shift key (which I wouldn't give two shits about had I not possessed a mac) and sometimes it makes me so sad I want to cry. But then I get back into point-number-three mode and tell myself it's just a machine, albeit amazing.

I'm just really happy about small things these days. It makes everything a lot more beautiful.

Stay happy!
Love,
Kanika

Clarity

"I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own."

Oh, Chris Martin, you beautiful being.

Hello, world.

I feel so much more at peace with my feelings these days, whether the feelings themselves are of unrest and anger. It just feels good to not deny the chance of feeling a certain way, be it tired or happy or calm or stressed. Feel each feeling through, right till the bone, till you simply cannot feel it any longer. Maybe this newfound contentment is due to the multiple cups of chai I've been treating myself to. Or just being (or forcing myself to be) so calm about everything.

It's a good day. Here, have some love :*

Love, 

Kanika

I'm allowed to be sappy sometimes.

To the glasses of Tang we shared on the terrace at midnight, talking quietly so that no one finds us,

To the little random gifts on my table and under my pillow, the ones that made me smile between tears,

To movie+pizza nights with the girls and loud game sessions with the boys,

To laughing at youtube videos and watching them so many times we can talk along,

To sharing a joke across class and trying to keep the giggles down,

To long text messages on occasions (which you always remember),

To sneaking out and doing shit we shouldn't have,

To getting drunk and high together and tripping on shit,

To gushing over crushes and getting over them,

To favorite songs that told you what I was going through,

To well-deserved and well-timed slaps in the face,

To sitting in silence together but still feeling like I told you everything,

To days and nights out and feeling so much together,

To never feeling lonely even if I'm miles away.

Happy friendship day, you idiots, I love you guys so much.

:)

Kanika

Acknowledgements and Happy Days

Something crazy has happened. For the first time, three people have passed the same award to me, and it's so wonderful because it's literally the 'Favourite Blog' award. Ruhani, Priyanka and Akanksha, thank you so much for thinking I deserve this :) 


German for 'favourite' - Liebster!

The downside is, though, there is now so much I have to do for this, and all that into 3. I have to write 11 facts about myself (so Imma now have to think of THIRTY THREE), I have to answer 11 questions (oh no, thirty three) and I'll have to frame 11 more questions for the people I pass this award onto. I have no qualms in all this, I just hope you guys don't get bored reading so much gibberish :3 (no one told me to write 3 times the amount I need to, I'm just in a really talkative mood right now)


OKAY, THIRTY THREE FACTS ABOUT ME.


1. I was born prematurely, and because I was so small my parents named me Kanika which means as small as an atom. Actually my mom named me that, my dad was vehement on calling me 'Amrusha'. No offence to anyone called that, but I'm glad my mother won that argument.


2. I actually prayed every night from the day my mom told me she was pregnant right up till she gave birth. I prayed for a sister, because I was 8 years old which is bang smack in the middle of my boys-are-so-stupid phase. I figured God existed, because I got what I asked for. And I got to name her :)


3. I've never got stitches, and I've never broken any part of my body. The most massive medical distress I was in was when I got jaundice as a seven year old, and then mild chickenpox in 12th standard.


4. I'm very good at remembering phone numbers, dates and random facts which makes me come off as really creepy on some occasions. :P


5. Every month for about 5 days, I VICIOUSLY wish I was a boy (certain days these are...when my womanhood is showing off in full bloody glory).


6. I'm terrible when it comes to keeping grudges. By that I mean it takes a lot for me to let it go, and if I do so without much persuasion then I probably really care about you.


7. The first time I ever stuck to a new year resolution was when I got my nose pierced. I know it's not a big thing, but man, it felt amazing the moment after it happened. (obviously I'm forgetting the stinging crazy pain from my nostril)


8. I truly love Coldplay's music. I'm not calling myself their biggest fan or anything (I probably don't even know as much about Chris Martin as some people around me do) but wow, their music is just so soothing and calming. Fuck the haters!


9. Ditto^ for John Mayer.


10. I really want to color my hair but I'm constantly worried I'll look like a fool. (Nilanjana, if you're reading this, you're amazingly awesome for getting it done, and woo, it looks great, we all know it <3 p="p">
11. My current courses all deal with content writing and editing - I've basically died and gone to writer heaven. I would love to be an editor, I think that job is made for me.

12. I do this extremely frustrating thing where I start a conversation on fb chat and lose the will to talk halfway into my second sentence. If I've done this to you, forgive me. I swing from friendly to aloof within seconds.

13. Not very random and pretty obvious really, but I love blogging :)

14. I've always wondered what having long hair would entail. The longest my hair has ever been is three inches down my shoulder. (I shouldn't really talk about my hair, it's a really heart wrenching topic)

15. I love hot baths. (I have a feeling I've mentioned this 23456785432 times before)

16. I LOVE MY MACBOOK IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

17. I'm a fourth year, the senior most batch in my college. I don't feel it at all. This happened to me during school too - when I was in sixth standard the seniors were these mature, smart people, ready to go out into the big bad world. I reached there myself and realised I was as immature and silly as I had always been. Being in my last year of college hasn't changed that.

18. My favourite book, song and color changes every goddamn day. (little hard to answer when someone asks, but today it's The Perks of Being A Wallflower/Into the Wild - LP/ turquoise)

19. I'm currently wearing my boyfriend's shirt to college. It looks really good on me. :D

20. I'm working on a new blog look right now. (by that I mean header). Suggestions are welcome. :)

21. I try very hard to keep everyone around me happy. In trying to do that I piss a lot of people off because it essentially means I can never decide on something. I'll be stressed whether I made the right choice for everyone.

22. ^As you can tell, I mostly never give a shit about myself. It works on some occasions and backfires on others.

23. I'm a notebook junkie. I collect notebooks but mostly leave them empty out of fear of ruining their pages.

24. I sniff books. Specially old ones my mother digs out from the recesses of her bookshelf with yellow dog-eared pages and tiny serif fonts. She recently lent me her copy of some John Grisham novel and I immediately dug my nose into it. (you'd think she'd be surprised but after 20 years of raising the idiot that I am, she was expressionless)

25. I want to lose weight. Anybody with tips, email me. Haha

26. I have forced my boyfriend to dance with me one really drunk night with friends. We played 'Glad You Came' and just jumped for the entire duration of the song. It was a crazy experience :D

27. I would like to achieve a perfect British accent.

28. I'm an amazing bathroom singer. Like, I have serious talent.

29. I'm an over-planner. I do not like to 'wing it' and if I am not completely sure about what the schedule is I will refuse to be a part of whatever it is, no matter how much I love it.

30. I remember song lyrics really easily, which leads people to think that I'm jobless.

31. I love triangles and geometric shapes, specially in illustrations and graphic design.

32. JUNK FOOD FTW

33. I had way more fun writing these than I expected :D

NOW! THIRTY THREE QUESTIONS I MUST ANSWER!
Akanksha's questions for me:

(1) If you were given one wish, what would that be? 

I would love to be stuck in my last year of school.

     

(2) Which place do you wish to visit the most?

Greece.

(3) If you somehow become the President, what would be the first thing that you'd do?

Take a nap on the giant insane bed I know I'll have/enable wi-fi at the Rashtrapati Bhavan.

(4) Your favourite author?

Oh no...there are too many. JK Rowling, Eoin Colfer are my all-time favourite authors.

(5) How much does blogging mean to you?

I love blogging. I love the joy of putting my thoughts out somewhere in the virtual cosmos.

(6) Would you give away everything for something that you love doing? 

Depends on how much I love it. Probs yes.

(7) What's the one thing that you would like to get from life?

Contentment.

(8) What would you do if you won a million dollars?

Spend some on nice clothes and food, give the rest to my parents.

(9) What's your life motto?

"When in doubt, eat a burger. When in greater doubt, take a nap." - Me

(10) How stupid and lame are the questions?  

Haha they really aren't.

Ruhani's questions follow:

1. The CRAZIEST thing that you've ever done? 

Sneaked a cigarette at home. So boring :|

2. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Eating.

3. If the average human lifespan was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

Travel like a motherfucker.

4. If you could break one law, which one would that be?

Pretty sure I've broken some, I'm good. Thanks :P

5. What do you do, that you think, makes you different from everyone else?

Decide what I should do on the basis of others' opinions, so much that I forget it's about me.

6. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really think it makes the elevator move faster? :P

I'm the most impatient person I know. (that's a 'hell yes')

7. If you were standing on stage, unaware that hundreds of people were watching you, what would you have done?

Sing a duet from High School Musical (of course I would sing both parts)

8. Who do you think is the sexiest person alive? [Please avoid mentioning me. Obvious facts don't need to be reiterated. :P ]

Haha. George Clooney.

9. Who would you rather date. A worried genius or a joyous simpleton?

Worried genius, any day.

10. If you were stranded on an island, which three things would you like to have in your bag?

a book, a notebook, a pen.

11. What is your first impression of me/this blog? [Muhahahaha. oh how I love being the evil bitch, the mother of all conspiracies and controversies! :D ]

Ruhani you're wonderful :) all your posts are insightful and a delight to read.

Priyanka's questions! :)

1. If you won a billion dollars what are the first 3 things you'd do with it?

Already answered this. Buy some food, some clothes, rest is with the parents.

2. What do you think are your chances of being born as a milkman in your next life?

I was thinking more along the lines of insect, so I really hope my chances of being a milkman are higher!

3. One celebrity you'd love to date.

TOM FELTON, NO DISCUSSION

4. Which bands'/artists' concerts do you really want to attend? Name any 5.

Coldplay, Jason Mraz, Gold Panda, John Mayer, Justin Timberlake.

5. Flip flops or heels?

Flip flops all the time, heels when I decide to look decent.

6. A movie you could watch any number of times?

Mona Lisa Smile and Shawshank Redemption.

7. Who was your first follower?

My roommate :3

8. Describe a moment when you were really proud of yourself.

Prefect in school.

9. What is the one thing you'd do, if you knew you'd be successful at it?

Cook for a living.

10. The best compliment you've ever received?
"The guy who gets to be with you will be the luckiest guy in the world." - breakup conversation

11. By which year do you think we'll finally establish contact with aliens?
Never really. If they haven't contacted us yet they're probably really smart because they're staying away from us.

You know, this was exhausting. Fellow bloggers I award now, just pick and choose your favourite 11 questions from the plethora above and answer them any way you like :)

Now when it comes to awarding people, I want to award all three ladies who awarded me because I love their blogs.

Ruhani

Priyanka 

Akanksha

you guys are so amazing :) you don't need to go through this whole process again but. :P BE HAPPY WITH THE AWARDZ YOU ALL ARE GETTING LIKE MONAY.

Other people I want to award are -

Vidhi

*Dark Angel*

Soumi

Shiromi

I do, I do

I'm going to go and pass this on, now :)

If you read all the way down here, thank you for sticking with the bullshit. I love you.

Yay,
Kanika

It's an 'us' sort of evening

I remember that terrace.

We sat there for many evenings without telling anyone, it was our little happy secret. Quiet some days, vociferously talkative another. Different days, different people. I found myself there, somewhere, tangled in those conversations I never dared to have with anyone else but you. Maybe it was in the way you always understood. Or how calm you made me feel in the midst of that chaos that was below. It might have been the way your words echoed in my head for days after they had been uttered.

I remember you.

Between days of melancholy and finding things to smile for. 

Unleash the Motherf*cking Fury

I've been feeling lost.

Been worried about internships, my grades (they're good, they've always been, yet I'm tense), and mostly about how a lot doesn't seem to matter to me at all, suddenly.

How I wish I could paint. There is so much happening inside my head I want to put down onto paper, but I always forget how to do justice to my thoughts. I want to write a long passage describing my dilemma, but I find I get distracted, mostly by shiny things with no body.

But all that for another insomiac night.

Diwita gave me an award :) and it requires some do-ing.

What a byootee.

a) thank and link back to the person who awarded you

Diwita, you are a gracious and kind human being. Thank you :) http://diwita.blogspot.in/

b) share seven things about yourself.

1. There is more truth on my blog than I share with most people.
2. I'm going to go on a diet. tomorrow. no, day after. soon...
3. I am a vicious grammar nazi.
4. Pottermore excited me only for the first five minutes.
5. I need a blanket/sheet when I sleep, even in summer.
6. I am very unsure about my work and applying for internships.
7. It is very difficult to conjure 7 things about yourself on demand, so I am slyly skipping the last.

c) award bloggers.

Okay then, let's see:

- Diwita at In My Words...
Checked out her blog just after she awarded me, she's a sweetheart and a great photographer in the making :) http://diwita.blogspot.in/

- Soumi at Sold-for-shoes-overweight-intellectual-dancer
She could be my best friend if she tried :P http://sold-for-shoes-overweight-intellectua.blogspot.in

- Vidhi at Fat Gulf Kid
My bro in late hours of the night :) http://chroniclesofchaddimanz.blogspot.in/

- I do, I do and ...Capturin' Life..
She's adorable, what else can I say! http://inthepourinrain.blogspot.in/

- Ruhani aat Hello There Machas,And Other Fisherwomen!=)
She's too bubbly for her own good :P http://ilikebigbuttsandicannotlie.blogspot.in/

d) tell them.

Doing that right now :)


Love,
Kanika

Grey's Anatomy Lovin'

Some days are meant for waking up really late but for once not beating yourself up about wasting half the day drooling over your pillow. Some days are for brushing your teeth at 3 pm, then wearily(as a result of sleep tiredness) sitting down at your table and opening your laptop, and then rubbing your head when the Windows theme blasts through. Some days are for looking at the clock, seeing it reads 8 pm, and realising you did as much work in 5 hours as you would have in an entire, normal day. For feeling proud about that.

Some evenings are for no cigarettes and no cola, for only grapes and juice and long baths and new hair serum.

Some nights are for feeing wonderful about being up to date with work for once, for watching Grey's Anatomy and crying, for feeling sad and content at the exact same time. Some nights are for being happy about just everything you know.

Today has been okay.

:)

Unknowingly

A full night of staying awake to break the reverse cycle, it's 7 am and I want to take a nap.

And my coldplay playlist ends with 'Paradise.'

It's a poetic sort of morning :)

Endeavouring

The thing about school friends is, they know you in a way you'd rather not remember. Back when you were still stupid, and heartbroken without realising that that word held more than just a temporary bad feeling of rejection.

They will forgive you more readily than you will forgive yourself for all the silly things you said and did back then, though they won't let you forget that one time when -

I get these phases where I intensely miss school and the people we were, stupid yes, but so happy nevertheless. There is so much that happened in those 14 years that has shaped my idea of the world, and that is more than I can ever imagine.

Fantabulous February - Day Five! *updated*

Look at this fucking beautiful screen capture. :')

I love you, blog. I love you, readers. Thank you for being patient when I rant and supportive when I crib. You've made me so happy the past few days, specially with the response to Fantabulous February. Can you believe it, 5 people posted along with me yesterday! That's five more than what I estimated! :P

Inspiration for today:

You can read more about Fantabulous February here, here, here and here.

Email me your bloglinks for today at kanika.kaul22@gmail.com or send them to me in a facebook message.

And come on guys. It was five yesterday, let's hit at least 6 today!

And I want to tell you guys. Lot of you have been emailing me with your bloglinks and adding me on facebook too. And saying that your blogs aren't much compared to mine. DO YOU WANT SLAPS? HUH? DO YOU?! It's your blog! Your baby! You can't tell me it sucks. Okay? Okay good.

My Post:

Systematic and highly organized in reality, her thoughts tell another floating, drifting story. Cyclical and routine while awake, her world turns directionless in her dreams. 
Red lips, black eyes. Beautiful and damaged. An enigma to you, but to me she's an open book of heartbroken cigarettes and hollow chuckles.
Take care of your fragile little self, the world outside is cruel and rigid.


Tangerine joined me today: http://ifeltthis.blogspot.in/2012/02/with-marauders-map-through-mind.html

Love love love,

Kanika

I'm a sweetheart.

When my boyfriend goes for a bath I leave red hearts on his wall.

Love,
Kanika

Silver Linings Always Exist

I want to tell you something.

You have a douchebag sense of humour. I am the butt of all your jokes. Outwardly, I want to kill you every time you drew attention to my paunch in public. Inside, there is a spreading glow, simply because of the fact that you're thinking about me. Sorry I never show you the glow though, and you always have to deal with an irrational overreacting girlfriend who can't take a joke.

You possess a ridiculous sense of romance. When I'm tutting to myself as I pick your clothes up off the floor and impatiently fold each one and clear your closet out, you grab me by the waist and lift me off the ground. I  fight you with feeble punches and yell in your ear, and somehow hide the giggles in the all the screaming that ensues.

Your constant questioning when I'm crying into your shoulder is frustrating as hell. I'm sad, hold me. How hard is that to do without any judging. I wait for you to shut up and just hold me close, but you go one ahead and start tickling me. And I know I moan and shout for you to stop, but all I really want is for you to go on making me laugh.

Your quiet moments when you stare at me blankly and not say a word scare the hell out of me. "Oh no he's having doubts about me, I'm too psychotic for him," I immediately think as I slowly climb into the bed next to you. I stare at the side of your face while you look at your laptop charger. I come close to your cheek. I kiss it. Tell you I love you. Fearfully. And you smile really, really slowly. You look at me. I love you too. I pout in anger at your pulling my leg, but I feel so happy that you said it. That you feel it.

I stayed in bed with you for two winter mornings and two winter nights, and I think that's when I fell hopelessly in love with  us. I want to tell you that I love you, even if you love Skrillex and I think Nicki Minaj doesn't suck so much.

Love,
Kanika

13th August

I haven't seen you in a while.

I haven't forgotten your face yet. The freckle next to your ear. The way your stubble feels at 4 in the afternoon. Watching you sleep with your mouth open ever so slightly. 

It's been a while and yet here you are, whispering your choice as I stand in front of my open closet and wonder which shade of black to put on today. And then again when I choose between sleep and despair. Once more when I trace over the daisy chain tattoo on my ankle you envied. It took a long deep breath and clenched fists and images of bad nights to remind me of your absence. 

I often feel lonely. Immense love for what we were supercedes all else. The universe conspires against me. It makes me think of you and I lie in bed staring at that crack in the ceiling and I feel a sudden ache envelop me whole.

"The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cause there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out."

Love,

Kanika

Is this what's going to happen for another 361 days?

I think 2012 is going to be awesome for me.

I'm basing this entirely on the fact that at when the clock struck 12 on the cold foggy night of 31st December 2011, I was going ape shit playing a game called Bejewelled on my laptop, and once the hour begun, my scores began to skyrocket.  Of course it's legit.

In the first four days of January 2012,
- Flipkart has surprised me by delivering a tripod to my house (my aunt ordered it for my birthday and gave my mailing address, beautiful surprise)
- My mom got vouchers that enabled us to eat (free) for a pretty extravagant amount at a pretty extravagant restaurant (she knew the Vice President of Operations, and last night, let me tell you, I have not seen so many plates of chicken on a single table my whole life)
- My parents decided I deserved something awesome for being the beautiful daughter that I always am so in a couple of days I should be receiving a 50 mm f/1.8 lens! For those who aren't so aware of this kinda stuff, basically, my pictures are going to get beautiful (wistful sigh)
- I met the ex, and things went way better than I expected (And I had expected kill-me-now bad, so anything would have topped that) in the sense that we parted at least as friends who might feel the need to call each other once in a blue moon to ask what's up :)
- My mom also got me graphic design work for her hotel where she works (the work doesn't involve a lot of my brain usage) but in case they love it, someone's gonna get riiiiiiiiiich
- Between all this it's a little lame but after a year of struggling to find a way to store 67 pairs of earrings (and a way that makes it easy to carry them when I'm travelling to and from home) mother and I found a perfect set of cute little plastic drawers (color coded now, of course) and I have to say, life is more efficient now that I don't spend at least 20 minutes in the morning trying to untangle earrings in order to make my outfit pop.

It's been a good four days. Yes sir :)

I recently discovered pinterest, a site much like tumblr with really sweet things to find, so here are some I found in the morning today and wanted to share. (You can make an account only if someone already on it invites you through email, so in case you're interested drop your email in the comments, I'll invite you :) )

Just simply for the thought.

-ditto-

What a cool way to organize necklaces and other pieces of jewellery!

This is by far one the nicest things I've seen in a while. Basically, for the whole year, you keep adding little notes to the jar about, say, a good day, a nice incident...whenever something nice happens you write it down and drop it in this. And then on New Years' Eve you can open it up again and look back on what a happy year it's been! Not a difficult thing to keep up with either. I've gotta try this :)

To end this post, here's a mad gif from photos taken yesterday (with the new tripod :D )...It's going to be a good year. I'm going to make it one.

Pyaaaaaaaar,

Kanika

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I HAVE been around, just not alive...

Hello my lovely blog.

I remember you, in between the running around to the city getting things ready for the exhibition and lying down on my bed coughing like an old man and popping crocins to prevent the onset of inevitable fever. I miss you, blog.

Hi you guys. I'm here, very much here, reading all your posts on my phone surreptitiously when I can steal a quiet moment away from all the noise and the ruckus. I miss writing. I miss being able to type out my thoughts to share almost as fast as I think them. It's a peaceful feeling I haven't felt in a long time.

Tomorrow's my birthday. In Bangalore for the first time. I don't even know if I have expectations or not. I'm just happy that I have someone new to spend it with...

Coming to that. Another thing I want to tell you. I found someone. He makes me laugh. He stayed up with me the whole night gently massaging my forehead when I had 101 degrees fever. He told me I looked pretty in my pyajamas. I think he's a keeper. :)

Delhi day after. Am I kicked? Quite. It's freezing. I can't wait. Sweaters and heaters and blankets and chai. Aah. I'm home.

Comment. Tell me what you've been up to. Wish me tomorrow :D

Pyaaaaaaaaar,

Kay

Things the past week has taught me.

1. However inviting that plate of gobi manchurian that the guy with the cart next to college created looks, chances are your stomach cannot handle the multitudes of masala and super fast hand motions of the chef. Eat a couple of pieces. And then control yourself.

2. Not having coca cola one day does not mean you are losing interest in that one thing that makes your life beautiful. Don't tell your friends you're getting deaddicted. They'll laugh. [:( ]

3. Never EVER underestimate the soothing powers of long hot water baths.

4. Throwing your head back to laugh while eating Wonka Gobstoppers will make you choke and nearly die.

5. Working with friends seems perfect until it comes to actually WORKing. Youtube will not do your assignments for you. Your GPA will not be calculated on the basis of how well your friends and you can shuffle.

6. Once you find two bloody brilliant songs that have even better videos, you basically listen to them on repeat and piss off your roommate.

play count - 72

 play count - 53

7. I need to write more. I keep thinking of beautiful sentences but before I can jot them down they've vanished.

8. ONE BED CANNOT HOLD TWO PEOPLE.

9. I know nothing about technology. My course makes me feel like that. Yeesh.

10. Big thanks to Priyanka over here at Because I believe in 'The Happily Ever Afters...!' for an award :) ARE MY EYES REALLY SO PRETTY? AW :)

11. Most often, love songs are not about your love story unless the writer knows you. Stop thinking all those beautiful words were written exactly for your life. Other people love and lose too. Specially that Lady Gaga song up there. It is not about you. NOT.

12. Thinking that if you sit in college on a Saturday and work when no one else is around other than your two distracted team mates is an idea that is destined to fail. Hence. Resort to telling yourself not to fuck around and actually do some research.

I took notes. Yeh.

And I took those notes with Sharpies. Are you jealous yet? -_-

13. Forget that thirteenth was your anniversary date.

Bohot pyaar.

Kay

Look what I did

I made a new blog, fellows, for my writing. It's called 'The Dis-Stimulation Of Ardour' (shmancy, yeah?) and I would love for you to follow.

Also. In another brilliant news. Isha from Chaai, Paani, Etc bestowed upon me the prestigious 'Chaai-Paani Award' for, as she described, I have 'pretty eyes and an even prettier blog.' I love you! :)

The Award. Yay.

Pyaar,

Kay